bored bored bored

hmm..so last night i stayed out extremely late. alex messaged me at about 1:30 and wanted me to go to denny's with him and nicole. so i said what the hell and went. then we got back to his dorm about 3:30 and decided to smoke some bowls and watch shakespeare in love, hahaha..so i trekked back to my dorm at like 5 am and crawled to sleep. i had to get up at 9 for work, which sucked..but they let me leave like 2 and half hours early for some reason. oh well. so now i am just kinda bored. my room is a mess, i need to clean all this shit up. but i just wanna sit here and chill to my siamese dream cd. maybe find somethin to do later. hehe. i came up with some possible tattoo designs while i was bored at work today. i am thinkin maybe a little =w= on my lower back and then an sp heart on my lower neck between my shoulder blades..and have it say "in faith, in compassion, and in love" somewhere around it. i also want a star symbol from the mcis album artwork with "a secret star that cannot shine" around it. hehe..damn, that's gonna be a lot of money, but i want all of them!

back to school

well not til wednesday, but i am back at purdue right now. it's boring. no one is here..but i have to work tomorrow morning. it sucks. but i had to make up the shift I missed saturday. hmm..i think i will watch a movie or something. alex is having his gf come down..so there isn't anything for me to do. oh well.

hmm hmmm hmmm hmm

what to do today? well i sorta slept in, lana got up to go somewhere but she came back at 11 and woke me up by blasting good charlotte or something reallllly loud. haha. so we just had breakfast, we made eggs and had poptarts. yum. so now i gotta go home and find something to do. i still gotta get an oil change at some point, but i need to burn some cdrs..and yeah. sounds like a boring day. i'm gonna call Lisha later and see if she wants to do somethin. i talked to her last night and she said "yeah come over and we'll do vodka shots. i have a bottle in my trunk." hmm, maybe. i'm supposed to hang out with Les and Shaky at some point, too. i don't know..as long as I am not sitting around the house bored. yippie. i'm gonna go home and shower now and make myself look beautiful.

well

i am back in carmel. fun stuff. heh so i watched charlie's angels at lana's tonight and we ate some ice cream. it was nice. she fell asleep, though..dork, she hadn't even seen all of it and she still fell asleep. oh well. i gotta get an oil change on my car tomorrow. blah..what else.. maybe i'll get drunk with les and shaky and them, I don't know. I can't sit around the house too long, though. Bah. Welp, time for sleep.

oh yeah

AND I WANT THE FUCKING RAIN TO STOP!!!!

today is the greatest...day i've ever known..

heh not really, but i felt like typin it. anyways, i am about to take off for a funfilled weekend in indy. oh boy.. yeah i scratched the chicago plans because it is raining and driving in the rain up there sucks ass. oh and there wasn't much to do anyways, unless maybe i got stoned with will but i decided against it. so yeah, i'm goin to a party tonight..with my old hs friends, hopefully it'll be fun. i haven't seen em for a while. and i just got a shitload of money from selling old videos and shit, i'm excited. now, if only i can come up with enough for my tori ticket.. hmm. i'm going to try and make this a stress-free weekend. free from any sad thoughts or anything that will bring me down. i will continue to think happy thoughts and shit, i'll think about the next time i get to see andy. hehe..that sounds lame. oh well, later!

yay yay yay yay!!

hmm even though it has been a rainy blah day it has still been a pretty good day. i slept in, went to math annnd..aced my quiz!! *dances* well i think so, i actually remembered how to do everything this time, maybe it was because i wasn't drunk last night, lol. so then i had my pscyh recitation..which was dumb but i had to go hand in a paper. i met this cool guy named chris in my recitation. we both work for marsh, how funny..but yeah he likes weezer and ben folds. i gave him a ride back to harrison since it was rainy and cold. seems like a cool guy. he might transfer to the marsh i work out, i hope it works out. he said he's a junior..kinda funny that he still lives in the dorms..but whatever floats your boat i guess. i am unsure of my plans for this fine evening. i am thinking a trip to chicago may be in order. poor alex is sick, so he will most likely be staying in this weekend. ilana already went home..and derek, well who know's what he's up to..he just told me he's going to a vegan potluck, whatever the fuck that is. oh well. so maybe i will go visit my chicago kiddies..or go to a show..or something. i just don't want to stay in lafayette because everyone is leaving..the campus will be dead come 7 pm tonight i think. gah. i hate purdue. but anyways.. i'm off to get paid, and then..maybe somewhere else. yay.

why

do i have to be so crazy about a boy that will probably never be just as crazy about me? *sigh*Forgiveness forgivenessTry and let it go why don't youForgiveness Just might save yourselfForgiveness forgivenessTry and let it go why don't youForgiveness Just might save yourselfForgiveness forgivenessLet it fucking go why don't youForgiveness Starts with yourself

i know you better than you fake it you see, and we don't even careeee

heh..yes, listenin to 33 currently. god i haven't listened to mcis in quite some time. i must say it's a nice change. but anyways...it's 8:52 and i'm kinda bored. no one is doin anything right now, blah. i think alex's roommate is gonna buy us some beer. who knows, maybe..when he gets back from rehearsal. i just want to go out for a while..even though i was just out for 2 hours, but sitting in the room depresses me. i don't want to think about purdue right now. i just want to get drunk and contemplate life. oh well.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck

why does everything have to come crashing down all at once? i hate this rut i'm in right now. fuck it. shoot me now......please.

yeahhhhhh

i can't believe how fucking fast this week has gone by. it's thursday already..wow. well i am skipping my com class at 10:30, actually i think my professor isn't requiring us to go anyways..unless we have questions about our speech outline, which i don't. but anyways, for having gone to bed super late last night i was not tired at all this morning. we had to do a peer review session in english and i actually had fun working with the 2 guys in my group...oh well, i'm gonna take a nap. no more class til 2:30!! yippie! and then a fun filled night of..drinking..and uh, more drinking, probably. hah.

oh my god i'm almost done

woo! i am officially 3 and half pages into my draft.. i can't believe myself. i think it has something to with the fact that beta and her friends left to go buy cigarettes..so i have some peace and quiet. well not really quiet since i am blasting goldfinger right now, haha, but you get the idea. i am so proud of myself. now i just need to find 6 damn articles for my challenging info speech. grr, did i mention com 114 is the devil? anyways, time for a study break.. i'm hitting up denny's with derek and possibly alex. fun fun fun!

ok that got me real far

beta (my roomie) has 4 people in the room watching gone in 60 seconds. i can't concentrate at all.. i just want to sit here. oh man. i need to get this draft finished so i don't go to bed at 4 am again. blah. anyways.. i gotta test the music and mood thing, though. thanks to trish for telling me how to do that..since i am a complete retard. :P

wow it's almost the weekend already

well if you're a college student anyways..the weekend starts tomorrow. hahaha. that's right, thirsty thursday as some call it. anyways..today has been a good day. although i almost slept through my math class which would not have been good. i woke up just in time to get lunch before i had to leave. hmm, what else..well i have a shitload of homework tonight..i gotta write a speech outline and a 5 page draft for english, all due tomorrow. that sucks ass..and i work 5 to 9. ahhh! well i guess i'll be busy tonight, i gotta read a bunch of pages in my novel for english, too. grr..i should have done more last night. aw well. i hope to hear from andy soon about this weekend..his car was having problems earlier in the week so i hope he can still make it, or else i might have to go up there. i really don't care..except i have no gas in my car at the moment. oh well...i gotta attempt to get my psych recitation paper done before i leave for work. cross your fingers that i can do that because i sure as hell won't be doin it tomorrow night....when i'm drunk off my ass and hangin out with ilana and her friends somewhere. hahaha. more later.

sleeeeep

or not. heh, i still have french homework, but maybe i'll go to sleep after that..who knows? i need to catch up on my zzzz. especially since i gotta work tomorrow and i have a bunch of shit to do. it all sucks. blah. i miss andy..i am just in a mood to snuggle and fall asleep next to someone.. ahh, i guess i'll just have to get over it. anyways..back to work. maybe sleep. *shrug*

lalala

so i should be studying but i'm being a lazy ass yet again. haha. i just got back from hanging out with ilana..we went over to ryan's apartment for a while, then i decided to be naughty and not go to french today, but it's ok..i didn't have an assignment due or anything and it's the first time i've not gone. it was just really hot and i wasn't in the mood after having had 3 hours of no class. i have lots of studying to do tonight, though. i need a speech topic..damnit, and 6 articles. grr..i hate com114, it's evil.

mmmm

i had a refreshing nap and then a big bowl of vanilla frozen yogurt with m&m's. the only good dorm food. haha. well no more class til 2:30..i'm not sure what i'll do to pass the time. i suppose i could study but who wants to do that? i'll just waste away a few hours like i always do. bah.

ahhh

here i sit, tired as hell and sick of class. actually i just need to stop going to bed at 4 am every night..but i couldn't help it. i just got back from my 7:30 and taking a nap is seeming more and more like a good idea right now. i don't have class again til 10:30 so i think i will. the only upside to college: being able to take an hour nap in between classes. other than that, it's just like high school only you don't live at home..it's the same bs with professors and classwork..blah. so to sleep..or dream..or some bullshit like that. hahaha. i'll spare you the shit and go catch some zzzzzz.

blah blah blah first entry

Well I have finally decided that a live journal might be a good idea. I am just kinda tired of keeping my hand written journal and falling days behind in it..damn college work!! hmm..i should be studying right now but i'm avoiding it. i can't stop thinking about andy. i hope i get to see him this weekend..i will be so happy. we talked on the phone today.. it was really nice to hear his voice again. we hadn't talked for a few days because we're both really busy and i want to give him any space that he needs. blah. but this weekend should prove to be fun hopefully. although purdue doesn't have shit to offer as far as entertainment..at least i would get to see him. i've been listening to goldfinger all night, i can't get them outta my head! they're fucking awesome..man i really need to focus here..and get into study mode, i have to read 2 chapters in my psych book and do some math.. i just want to sit here and chill, ahh..this is getting me nowhere. i'll be back later to update this thing.